again i am shocked how quickly i can come unglued. even tonight, with the car stuck in the snow and needing to be towed, i felt like such a failure! and lost, and like i had noone to call and all insecure and stuff. and crying! and to have to pay for the car to be towed-ugh!1 i dont have that money. money again-= no money- im sick sick sick of all that.