again i am shocked how quickly i can come unglued. even tonight, with the car stuck in the snow and needing to be towed, i felt like such a failure! and lost, and like i had noone to call and all insecure and stuff. and crying! and to have to pay for the car to be towed-ugh!1 i dont have that money. money again-= no money- im sick sick sick of all that.

this study has laid me out! i am so glad that i have a God who in might and power and Love and mercy, through His spirit , can change me, because what im seeing is not a pretty sight! i had no idea how insecure, and how so many negative patterns and behaviors come from that insecurity! i also didnt realize that i do put money as a false god. i know i feel better when i have it, and i know that i think of it constantly-ugly-----it is so not trusting God. my security lies in Him, and only Him.so my looks, my popularity, or my financial statis have nothing to do with my security- i am secure because God Himself has crowned me with glory! He has clothed me in strength and dignity. He loves me the way He made me. But it grieves Him to see what sin (mine or others) has done to me. I pray that God will reach down and toudch these broken parts- and i know that He will- and make the Change that i cant do , but only He

this is very new to me, and a little bit scary! i have absolutly no idea what im doing- hope it turns out better than my twitter experience- i need a tutor!